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a brief note... 12/13/06 In the recent past, I was revisited by my long-lost Muse. After I got over the initial shock, I quickly made preparations for our next project. Around that time, my Muse jumped up suddenly, said "Oops, forgot something, be right back," and promptly ran off. Again. So for now, I'm doing some much needed house-keeping. When my Muse returns, the place should be bright and shiny and ready for her. If you have any thoughts or suggestions on Wandering-Muse-Syndrome, or anything else related to your Muse, feel free to post these thoughts here. Note: The replacement of its psy/emanation predecessor, this forum will house a Creative Writing section and Gaming section, as well as an area for General Discussion.
a
brief note... 4/22/03
Well,
enough of the tired matters of state. I have arrived...!
It's been a long journey, finding my way back "here."
Mainly it was a detour of disassociation from the self.
A lofty perspective means nothing, absolutely nothing, if
you can't stand in your own two shoes and view the world through
your own two eyes. So, enough about me. Now I'd like
to thank some of the people I've met along the way:
Jeep-Boy - for his reflective genius of knowing exactly what to say so that I might understand what I've put aside as lost. also for always being there, tolerating my confusion, and constantly trying to introduce new sounds into a tired song.
Judith - the angel of the house, for showing me the meaning of positive thinking, the gift of the mundane in the swirling, chaotic mess of "higher thinking," and for having a place for me in her home and life. I'll never be able to repay the kindness.
Loi - for being you! some bunny loves you. ^^
Sensei J - for being the living example of discipline, focused concentration, and patience; for his quiet dignity and strength, his clear head, and his companionship.
Tommy - for his positive influence (by virtue of his eclectic taste in the arts), and for being a good brother.
Ghio - for his valuable lessons on the shadow aspect, for putting up with my bs, for the good times and the bad, and for his generosity despite strife.
Orion - for threatening to beat down anyone who steps on my back (his support) and his friendship.
Messi - (who also taught the "shadow" class) for showing the pitfalls of intensity without dedication, for being one of the few who heard me when I had no voice, and for all the righteous beats.
Gil - for sharing the joys and occupational hazards of being god.
Mom - for all the love and hard work.
Dad - for being a spiritual example and for having such tremendous spirit.
Triston Gheovani Orion - for teaching me what love is, you are the apple of my eye.
Quote
"To
be attached to one's own happiness is a barrier to the true and
perfect path. To cherish others
is the source of every admirable
quality."
-Tsongkhapa, "The Splendor
of an Autumn Moon"
a
brief note... 3/20/03
A
Letter
Hello. I am sure that I am not the
only person greatly displeased about the bombing and declaration of
war. I am writing this mainly because even though I sought to
accept what would happen,
I am finding it hard not to be angry and terribly sad.
My peers are exchanging pictures
of missiles with coca cola bottle cap tips, spoof songs about
killing Saddam,
and edited photos of Bush wearing the ring of power (from lord
of the rings). They do so perhaps in the attempt to laugh at
a situation that, if taken seriously, might bring them
to tears. Perhaps not. I can't join in on the laughter,
because I cannot shake the anger I feel that our nation
has
somehow justified the death of many for something which seems,
to me, to be a
child's power struggle. I anticipate a few replies
about national security, terrorism, etc... (Terrorism is NOT a defined evil that can be extinguished by
a show of force). But today I feel that as a country we are one big bully. Without war we would not
know peace? Perhaps (perhaps not!!!), but its a sorrowful time, when many young people offer their
lives for an empty cause. Saddam is a monster, he tortures people to enforce his rule? What causes
a "monster" like him, and do his atrocities make a whole country into evil people deserving of this?
How much do our technological
war-toys hurt our planet?
I hoped beyond anything that it
would not come to this. But now that it has, I wonder if maybe
I'm taking this ride too seriously. Maybe its
me who has the problem, because I can't look at Bush's face
without
feeling bitterness. I can't see a patriotic bumper sticker without
feeling a little
resentment. I can't think of a gun without wishing
to dismantle part of our civilization in the hopes we'll forget about such dangerous and final, cold and
impersonal weapons. And I know there is no one to blame.
There's
part of me that feels this and part of me that watches like its
a movie.
Though this
does not have anything directly to do with tantra, I bring it
up because the dymanics involved are a part of the daily life of
most, albeit on an exaggerated scale. And even if you are
lucky
enough to not experience any ego wars in your domestic or work
life, this is something
I feel will affect us all. Some trumpet sounder
in my head sees this as the end.
There is anger and sometimes violence
in my heart, but how did our world get like this...?!?!?!?!
I hope I will awaken from this hellish nightmare
soon. I imagine every tear that I cry is a liquid forgiveness bathing
an eye that could be our world. But I am running out of tears.
- being-self-absorbed, wearing-an-angry-face,
zen
Quote
"If
we dare the darkness, we find the light. When human reasoning
completely fails to entice answers, they come. We cannot force
our-selves to think clearly, but we can become aware that
we are not in clarity. Consciousness
of our confusion then leads to a new kind of clearness in
which there is no more doubt. It should
not bother us in the slightest to suspect that there might
be something wrong with the way we think. To
the contrary, it should excite us, for we are on the doorstep to fantastic discoveries."
- the daily guru
a
brief note... 3/9/03
"The
truth is always simple. It always has been. There is no relation
between religion and God, other
than
the concepts which men have created in an attempt to understand
that which was beyond understanding. Through-out time man has
sought to understand God, to directly learn of an existence
beyond
the physical life. In this search for understanding, many misconceptions
came into
being, misconceptions which have been
perpetuated and passed down through the ages. There is no harm in misperceptions, because eventually, they
come to light and truth prevails. There is harm however, in
the
form of human suffering, which is continued to this day because
of misperceptions
about God.
The simplicity of truth is not easily
recognizable to most people. To those who seek to know God
through external
rituals and religions practices, the search has become hollow.
Did you ever wonder why so many seek and so few find? Could
it be they are looking in the wrong place? Could it be they
have
been following the paths of men, following some external example,
rather than
going directly to the source? God
has never been far away. God has never required worship,
ritual, mantras, austerities, or praise. These are the things
of men. These are the external structures set down by
generations
past who viewed God as separate, as an unattainable goal
reserved
for a chosen few.
The spiritual practices of the past
have been useful to a degree, they had a time and a place or
they would never have come into existence. But
the time for these practices has come to an end. To continue to follow the practices of times
past is to remain in times past. God is ever unfolding...
ever revealing. God is manifesting in and through
creation in each and every moment. God is making itself
known
directly to those who are pure enough to receive. To those who
do not look to the
ways of men to know God, God appears, is revealed,
and becomes tangible. This is the Direct Path, the path which is set forth within each person, a blueprint
to follow, simplicity revealed through love and devotion to God alone, molding itself through each person
in exquisite, simple perfection.
To follow the Direct Path to God
requires dedication, pure intent and a deep longing to return
to truth and simplicity. God is only revealed to
those who purely seek, for love´s sake alone, the
highest form of truth available to man. For those who
seek to know God directly and who are ready to give up the ways of men, there is the Direct Path, a
reminder of what has been forgotten, the divine blueprint of creation within each one of us.
So much as been written about the
path to God, so many traditions, each originating from a
different religion, culture or spiritual group, each
providing a means by which the seeker can attain the highest realization. Each of these paths
has had one thing in common...someone had first traveled it themselves, thus paving the way for others.
As they shared their practices and realizations, others followed, and religion was born. Through
many years and many interpretations, the original messages have become muddled and misunderstood. These
misunderstandings remain
today and are perpetuated through well-meaning
devotees of the world's religions.
What was once pure has become impure
through the misinterpretations of men. The path to God,
the most simple truth of existence, has become
confusing and artificial. Mankind has focused its attention on the teachings of religion, which are
no longer the pure manifested transmission of the God-realized men
who first offered the teachings. The first step then, on the Direct
Path is to let go
of the indoctrinations of religious
teachings.
To do this requires much faith and
courage. Those who are pure of heart will have no doubt
already recognized the untruths within the religious
teachings and to let them go is simply a matter of taking
responsibility
for one´s own experiences and following one´s own
heart. This is the first
and most absolute requirement on the Direct
Path, the ability to follow one´s own heart, even
if doing
so means you will be judged wrong by those
around you. To be willing to stand alone is necessary on the Direct Path. There is no other way to release yourself
from the ways of the world
which steadfastly pull on you through perceived
expectation, judgment, obligation and fear. There must be a knowing within oneself that the experience of God-realization
is meant for every- one
and is thereby, fully attainable
by
everyone. One must release any previous beliefs that one
may hold
as to the "difficulty" or "rarity" of reaching this state and allow a new human
experience to
be born through them.
To facilitate our return home, an
energy is born within us. This energy is known as Kundalini and
it is the link by which we are transformed back
into our own Divinity. Following the Divine blueprint, we
are
led through purification of man´s lower consciousness into
higher states of awareness
where we encounter Divine Truths which
reveal what the mystics have always known... that God is within, in a very real and tangible way."
- Solomae Sananda
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Living Spirit Foundation
a
brief note... 2/17/03
Baz
Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would
be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own
meandering experience...I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the
power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand
the power and beauty
of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years
you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall
in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you
and how fabulous
you really looked. You're not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about
the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as
trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The
real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never
crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do
one thing everyday that scares you. Sing. Don't be reckless with other peoples
hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste
your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're
behind...the race is long,
and in the end, its only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive,
forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your
old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel
guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life...the
most interesting people I know didn't know
at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most
interesting 40 year
olds I know still don't. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you'll
miss them when they're gone. Maybe you'll marry, maybe you wont, maybe
you'll have children,maybe you wont, maybe you'll divorce at 40,
maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary...what
ever you
do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either
- your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your
body, use it every way you can...don't be afraid of it,
or what other
people think of it, its the greatest instrument you'll ever own...
Dance...even
if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the
directions, even if you don't follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines,
they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you
never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they
are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick
with you
in the future. Understand
that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should
hold on. Work hard to bridge
the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get,
the more you need the people you knew when you were young. Live in New York
City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern
California once, but
leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices
will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old,
and when
you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable,
politicians were
noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don't expect anyone
else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have
a wealthy spouse;
but you never know when either one might run out. Don't mess too
much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful
whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.
Advice is a form of nostalgia,
dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal,
wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more
than its worth. But trust me on the sunscreen...
- submitted by Grazie A
Quote
"Life
is one continuous mistake."
- Dogen Zenji
a
brief note... 7/26/02
solitude
still posture
serene smile
sweet, silent promise
total annihilation
- zen
Quote
"Men
occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves
up and hurry off as if nothing ever happened." -
Winston Churchill
a
brief note... 4/6/02
"The
Sun Never Says"
Even
After
All this time
The sun never says to the earth
'You owe me.'
Look
What happens
With a love like that,
It lights up the
Whole
Sky.
- Hafiz, Sufi poet
a
brief note... 12/3/01
A
light will shine on the scattered few. Take notice of those
who see. However sight is not always
wisdom
nor is its absence justice. MODERATION. Life is more
appealing than lust or greed. Youth is
Honesty
baned by curiosity and ignorance. Age is Wisdom too often
clouded by
cynicism. The power of Knowledge is
Freedom. Don't let the Magic fade. Ambition is forked.
Find a balance-all
things are necessary. Man's nature
may be kind, Greed is not a product of Nature but of Man. Compassion must strangle Corruption. We are the
cord. The longer we wait the more we suffer. Strength in Unity. Emotion is a key not a toy.
Fear will become Frustration and then Fury. The weak
use Force. The weak will Fail. Those
who are Faithfully blind are Fully dependent on Fragile promises. Future generations will Forget one man's struggle.
Few will
admire the Fall of civilization.
-
Dr.DVD
a
brief note... 10/30/01
Georges
I. Gurdjieff taught that the world is occupied by 'somnambulists.'
These sleep walkers are numb to the reality about them.
So, awakening into Spirit, is just
that, an awakening from the dream.
It is torturous to dream and yet
know you are still asleep. The pressure builds up from within,
and finally
it arrives at a 'critical mass.'
It may be that for most, only then
is there a possibility of awakening, as the alternative is
paralysis
or extinction.
This is like the point in Qabala,
when one has trod the Pathways for the journey toward final
illumination.
Yet, one arrives at a chasm called the Abyss, and it is
terrifying. Long ago a wise teacher said, "Fear not,
for there is an invisible Sephera called Da-ath in the midst of
this gap, and
you are safe to step forward on it and cross to the other side."
One cannot quite recall just whom it was said those words,
the ones which initiated the spiritual journey, and it seems a
very long
fall if they are lies.
Paralysis is horrid, for having
come this far, how can one turn back?
Then one looks to his/her left and
right, and notices myriad others in the same quandary;
afraid of extinction and unable to let go of the
journey.
Across the Abyss are Binah, Chokmah
and Kether, which are the Holy Trinity in this mystical
form, and the Ain Soph Auer, the place of Infinite
Perfection and limitless fulfillment. It is unknowable and cannot be taught, only achieved.
Then one must ask if one is willing
to surrender the fear of non-being to attain the reason
for being itself. The decision cannot
be made by another but only by oneself. Forward?
Backward?
Or stuck here forever?
^----^
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(---)/<
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~~~~~
Namasté and Blesséd Be...
~~~~
Robin Goodfellow
~~~~
"May the longtime Sun shine upon You, all Love surround You
and the Pure
Light within You guide Your Way on..."
~~~~~~~
a
brief note... 9/13/01
"...Although
the words "Terror", "Horror" and "Outrage"
will be among those to be constantly repeated...behind, beneath and
through them is the psychic reality of hate and anger. As
Jung understood
the horror of World Wars to be an expression /acting out of mankind's
unconscious / unresolved
Shadow issues...nothing has changed except the technology through
which to express / act
out that Shadow. Our Shadow only grows through unresolved
and repressed hate, anger and resentment. It also grows exponentially
by throwing the gasoline of acting out on that already
smoldering
repression. Finally...unless we as individuals learn how
to deal with the responsibility of our own unfinished business / bullshit...we're
going to continue to witness others acting it out for (and most
certainly against) us. We've all got a lot to learn about
ourselves...and Carl Jung is still one of the most accessible of healers
through which to do so."
- kristo
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