It’s true that I take a hiatus from blogging for a few months, here and there. It’s also true that I have yet to find that one project that I can honestly call “ongoing.” I’ve left a string of projects behind me, each with a clear cut start date and a slightly foggier ending date. I almost thought this blog would be my last project, one that I could contribute to indefinitely, without worry of content or style restrictions.
Yet here I am again, contemplating a new start. I’d like to work on a blog that isn’t connected to games — I’ve even played with the thought of putting my real life content on it. I’ve considered that maybe it’s time to grow up. But let’s not be too hasty. After all, here I am now, making a new post. Only just today, I was looking through a bunch of old game screenshots. Maybe it isn’t quite time to give up this ghost.
One thing is clear though:
“Something new” is going to be another blog. I’m going to try writing different types of articles instead of just the usual ramblings and poetry.
Peering cautiously out of one barely opened eye, my mind harkens back to those old dreams of flight. I recall the strange sensation — it was more like floating in zero gravity after springing nimbly into the air, than actually flying. This time was similar. Only instead of rising up exuberantly, then floating tranquilly, this feeling was one of leaping from one thing to another. That’s me, a rehabilitated Tarzan swinging from tapestry to tapestry in some huge library in my head. Momentum was again my friend but now gravity was an unspoken nemesis I had to respect in order to soar through the air the way I loved to.
Again I recognize the importance of staying in the middle. Not so much in the sense of balance or moderation, as is usually the case, but for the crucial sake of survival. This is new. This instinctual restraint is not inborn, but the result of knowing firsthand what happens. If you let the joy of the magic take you too high too fast, the magic consumes you. And now there’s the new knowledge of the opposite extreme. Flying low, slowly and apathetically, is safe. But there’s the gradual descent that inevitably follows. I had taken it too far, this fear of burning up in the sun. For too long I had dutifully meandered the earth like a good human, bent on mediocrity and the general consensus.
But that’s not real, anymore than television is. And it certainly does not satisfy, the way a well-oiled meal enjoyed in the company of good friends would. Most importantly, it’s not life-sustaining. Moving through the air and practicing physics in a dream-state is the cure, and I drink up the experience much like I would down a gulp of water offered up by a mystical cactus in the sweltering heat of the desert.
They say that good things come in small packages. Although usually I reserve that phrase for tiny treats or those nifty little bottles of travel shampoo, I think in this scenario it definitely applies. I’m talking about Nipp Mousetrap, of course. She may be diminutive of stature, but this calico Charr is a creative powerhouse. Her alter ego (shall we call her Aywren?) has quite the internet presence. Where should I begin?
If you’re on Tumblr and you’re part of the Guild Wars 2 community, maybe you’ve already seen her. Otherwise known as White Charr, Nipp has a great Guild Wars 2 blog that she regularly updates with all kinds of GW2 fan art, timely news, and random bits of in-game humor. If you enjoy art and like to stay in-the-know about the latest Guild Wars 2 updates, following her is highly recommended.
Not only does Aywren appreciate art, she’s an artist herself. And a writer to boot! Below is the cover she drew for “Dreigiau Book 1,” the first of 4 books in her Dreigiau series. Also, if you have a Kindle, your needs have been provided for. To date, she has 2 Kindle Edition eBooks, the first of which is available free at Amazon. Readers of the fantasy genre, I can’t think of any reason not to check it out.
This is just a small sampling of the artwork and creative writing of one Nipp Mousetrap. To stay informed about ongoing and new Sygnus Network projects, maybe the best thing to do is subscribe to Aywren’s blog.
Last but not least, Aywren is the guild leader of Wayrift [WAY] (along with her buddy and co-conspirator Syn)!
Last month I posted some screenshots of fellow Wayrift [WAY] guild mates. One thing I immediately noticed was that I mostly had screenshots of the same few close pals. While that’s to be expected, since then I’ve made an effort to create more screenshot opportunities with the guildies I don’t see as often.
Jenna, Gavin, Haverhill, & Jo Cur after fighting a giant
The characters that appear are: Tharash, Korrik, Jo Cur, Armorclad, Oso Cagey, Haverhill, Komradette Midna, Zeb Ya, Tsuya Tai, Crummy Goggles, Ji Whitehawk, Jenna, Goobex, Solgae, Bridget, Sugarbabymonk, Liitle Dude, Karma Tornado, Celesteana, & Gavin Whitehawk
(For best results, view the slideshow in fullscreen mode! It’s the square button furthest to the right on the navigation bar.)
Two of my current favorite songs are off of John Frusciante’s 5th solo album “Shadows Collide with People” (released 2004).
In the song “Carvel,” his vocal style simultaneously evokes the conflicting emotions of pain and exultation. It calls to mind what I envision surfing must be like — riding a wave of barely contained passion, he lets out enough to flow and really express himself, while still maintaining control. And yes it does make me want to eat a Carvel cake.
When I try I force it out Never looking in only out Now is the time for millions to lose Never the same since I lost you Running me out of town Wishing the best around Would only get off my back Heaven receives you and throws you back
Sending a dummy to my God
Driving to eat a Carvel cake Somewhere you know isn’t where you think Have you gone away Have you gone, have you gone away already (come back, come back, come back, come back)
All the good times are on their way Up and down that’s how energy stays alive And I wouldn’t have it any other way
I’m one of those people who listens to music as a mood altering tool, and I’ve found that nothing helps a low mood like pleasing harmonies and a beautiful melody. And since I’ve always had a soft spot for acoustic, which is supplemented with a little electric here, this song really does it for me.
“Song to Sing when I’m Lonely”
A song to play when I’m lonely Win and never play a game again No one to face when I’m falling Holding tight to dreams that never end
I’ll be you I do I’ll be you No one’s afraid to be called by another name No one dares to be put down where they don’t belong Nowhere’s anyone reason Everything dying and leaving Out with these faults and you make me baby Faking a movement but no one’s seeing it No one always finds peace flung No one chooses to beat my pride down
Symbols pierce right through me People fail to be drawn up Sunlight to fate accumulates Loving pain to be clung to
By luminous bodies Only waiting for long signs to be wrong And true to us Out of place in my own time Drowning thinking that I’m dry Holding onto facts that’ll never be proven Faking an action cause no one’s looking Hello when I’m crashing Feel nothing when my life’s flashing before my eyes You should’ve threw me down Is the content so much
I’ve taken quite a few screenshots since I started playing Guild Wars 2, but realized that I hadn’t posted any since joining the Wayrift [WAY] guild. Here are some pics of new friends, as well as longtime pals.
Crummy Goggle, Gavin, & Tsuya Tai waiting for the Shatterer to appear.
Although I don’t have screenshots of everyone, many of the guild mates I see most often are depicted here. The characters that appear are: Tsuya Tai, Zeb Ya, Hannover Phist, Ling Si, Jadyn, Karma Tornado, Komrade Markovski, Hermad, Raven Kihaku, Chiang Shi, Ji Whitehawk, Jo Cur, Haverhill, and Gavin Whitehawk.
It was back when I was a teenager that I first saw the movie “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.” The story impressed itself upon me deeply. I could relate to the main character, who became my personal definition of an anti-hero, and his fight against a system that appeared to be doing good but may have been a tad misguided. Although his methods may not have been correct, his actions brought hope to the struggling people around him. I still identify with the main theme of freedom of the human spirit. But more than the plot or message of the movie, today I’m thinking about the intro music. It was the first time I heard the unique, beautiful sound that is the musical saw.
Somewhat related but not entirely, there’s a song intro which I absolutely love. I think part of what I like about it is that it reminds me of a musical saw. The other part I like is that it’s music straight from the soul of John Frusciante. Here’s a clip of the Red Hot Chili Peppers playing “Don’t Forget Me” live in France. The song itself is alright, but I’m much more taken by the intro and guitar parts. I’ve been known to watch the first 1 minute of this video over and over — you can see the peace and love on John’s face as he’s playing.