a brief note... - 12/13/06
In the recent past, I was revisited by my long-lost Muse. After I got over the initial shock, I
quickly made preparations for our next project. Around that time, my Muse jumped up suddenly, said
"Oops, forgot something, be right back," and promptly ran off. Again.
So for now, I'm doing some much needed house-keeping. When my Muse returns, the place should be
bright and shiny and ready for her.
a brief note... - 4/2/03
Well, enough of the tired matters of state. I have arrived...! It's been a long journey, finding
my way back "here." Mainly it was a detour of disassociation from the self. A lofty
perspective means nothing, absolutely nothing, if you can't stand in your own two shoes and view
the world through your own two eyes. So, enough about me. Now I'd like to thank some of the people
I've met along the way:
Jeep-Boy - for his reflective genius of knowing exactly what to say so that I might
understand what I've put aside as lost. also for always being there, tolerating my confusion, and
constantly trying to introduce new sounds into a tired song.
Judith - the angel of the house, for showing me the meaning of positive thinking, the gift
of the mundane in the swirling, chaotic mess of "higher thinking," and for having a
place for me in her home and life. I'll never be able to repay the kindness.
Loi - for being you! some bunny loves you. ^^
Sensei J - for being the living example of discipline, focused concentration, and
patience; for his quiet dignity and strength, his clear head, and his companionship.
Tommy - for his positive influence (by virtue of his eclectic taste in the arts), and for
being a good brother.
Ghio - for his valuable lessons on the shadow aspect, for putting up with my bs, for the
good times and the bad, and for his generosity despite strife.
Orion - for his support and friendship.
Messi - (who also taught the "shadow" class) for showing the pitfalls of
intensity without dedication, for being one of the few who heard me when I had no voice, and for
all the righteous beats.
Gil - for sharing the joys and occupational hazards of being God.
Mom - for all the love and hard work.
Dad - for being a spiritual example and for having such tremendous spirit.
Triston Gheovani Orion - for teaching me what love is, you are the apple of my eye.
There are others.
To anyone who's ever been a part of my life, thank you...!
Quote
"To be attached to one's own happiness is a barrier to the true and perfect path. To cherish
others is the source of every admirable quality."
- Tsongkhapa, "The Splendor of an Autumn Moon"
a brief note... - 3/20/03 Letter
Hello. I am sure that I am not the only person greatly displeased about the bombing and declaration
of war. I am writing this mainly because even though I sought to accept what would happen, I am
finding it hard not to be angry and terribly sad.
My peers are exchanging pictures of missiles with coca cola bottle cap tips, spoof songs about
killing Saddam, and edited photos of Bush wearing the ring of power (from lord of the rings).
They do so perhaps in the attempt to laugh at a situation that, if taken seriously, might bring
them to tears. Perhaps not. I can't join in on the laughter, because I cannot shake the anger I
feel that our nation has somehow justified the death of many for something which seems, to me, to
be a child's power struggle. I anticipate a few replies about national security, terrorism, etc...
(Terrorism is NOT a defined evil that can be extinguished by a show of force). But today I feel
that as a country we are one big bully. Without war we would not know peace? Perhaps (perhaps
not!!!), but its a sorrowful time, when many young people offer their lives for an empty cause.
Saddam is a monster, he tortures people to enforce his rule? What causes a "monster"
like him, and do his atrocities make a whole country into evil people deserving of this? How much
do our technological war-toys hurt our planet?
I hoped beyond anything that it would not come to this. But now that it has, I wonder if maybe I'm
taking this ride too seriously. Maybe its me who has the problem, because I can't look at Bush's
face without feeling bitterness. I can't see a patriotic bumper sticker without feeling a little
resentment. I can't think of a gun without wishing to dismantle part of our civilization in the
hopes we'll forget about such dangerous and final, cold and impersonal weapons. And I know there
is no one to blame. There's part of me that feels this and part of me that watches like its a
movie. Though this does not have anything directly to do with tantra, I bring it up because the
dymanics involved are a part of the daily life of most, albeit on an exaggerated scale. And even if
you are lucky enough to not experience any ego wars in your domestic or work life, this is
something I feel will affect us all. Some trumpet sounder in my head sees this as the end.
There is anger and sometimes violence in my heart, but how did our world get like this...?!?!?!?! I
hope I will awaken from this hellish nightmare soon. I imagine every tear that I cry is a liquid
forgiveness bathing an eye that could be our world. But I am running out of tears.
- being-self-absorbed, wearing-an-angry-face, zen
Quote
"If we dare the darkness, we find the light. When human reasoning completely fails to entice
answers, they come. We cannot force our-selves to think clearly, but we can become aware that we
are not in clarity. Consciousness of our confusion then leads to a new kind of clearness in which
there is no more doubt. It should not bother us in the slightest to suspect that there might be
something wrong with the way we think. To the contrary, it should excite us, for we are on the
doorstep to fantastic discoveries."
- the daily guru
a brief note... - 3/9/03
"The truth is always simple. It always has been. There is no relation between religion and
God, other than the concepts which men have created in an attempt to understand that which was
beyond understanding. Throughout time man has sought to understand God, to directly learn of an
existence beyond the physical life. In this search for understanding, many misconceptions came into
being, misconceptions which have been perpetuated and passed down through the ages. There is no
harm in misperceptions, because eventually, they come to light and truth prevails. There is harm
however, in the form of human suffering, which is continued to this day because of misperceptions
about God.
The simplicity of truth is not easily recognizable to most people. To those who seek to know God
through external rituals and religions practices, the search has become hollow. Did you ever wonder
why so many seek and so few find? Could it be they are looking in the wrong place? Could it be they
have been following the paths of men, following some external example, rather than going directly
to the source? God has never been far away. God has never required worship, ritual, mantras,
austerities, or praise. These are the things of men. These are the external structures set down by
generations past who viewed God as separate, as an unattainable goal reserved for a chosen few.
The spiritual practices of the past have been useful to a degree, they had a time and a place or
they would never have come into existence. But the time for these practices has come to an end. To
continue to follow the practices of times past is to remain in times past. God is ever unfolding...
ever revealing. God is manifesting in and through creation in each and every moment. God is making
itself known directly to those who are pure enough to receive. To those who do not look to the ways
of men to know God, God appears, is revealed, and becomes tangible. This is the Direct Path, the
path which is set forth within each person, a blueprint to follow, simplicity revealed through love
and devotion to God alone, molding itself through each person in exquisite, simple perfection.
To follow the Direct Path to God requires dedication, pure intent and a deep longing to return to
truth and simplicity. God is only revealed to those who purely seek, for love´s sake alone, the
highest form of truth available to man. For those who seek to know God directly and who are ready
to give up the ways of men, there is the Direct Path, a reminder of what has been forgotten, the
divine blueprint of creation within each one of us.
So much as been written about the path to God, so many traditions, each originating from a different
religion, culture or spiritual group, each providing a means by which the seeker can attain the
highest realization. Each of these paths has had one thing in common...someone had first traveled it
themselves, thus paving the way for others. As they shared their practices and realizations, others
followed, and religion was born. Through many years and many interpretations, the original messages
have become muddled and misunderstood. These misunderstandings remain today and are perpetuated
through well-meaning devotees of the world's religions.
What was once pure has become impure through the misinterpretations of men. The path to God, the
most simple truth of existence, has become confusing and artificial. Mankind has focused its
attention on the teachings of religion, which are no longer the pure manifested transmission of the
God-realized men who first offered the teachings. The first step then, on the Direct Path is to let
go of the indoctrinations of religious teachings.
To do this requires much faith and courage. Those who are pure of heart will have no doubt already
recognized the untruths within the religious teachings and to let them go is simply a matter of
taking responsibility for one´s own experiences and following one´s own heart. This is the first
and most absolute requirement on the Direct Path, the ability to follow one´s own heart, even if
doing so means you will be judged wrong by those around you. To be willing to stand alone is
necessary on the Direct Path. There is no other way to release yourself from the ways of the world
which steadfastly pull on you through perceived expectation, judgment, obligation and fear. There
must be a knowing within oneself that the experience of God-realization is meant for everyone and
is thereby, fully attainable by everyone. One must release any previous beliefs that one may hold
as to the "difficulty" or "rarity" of reaching this state and allow a new human
experience to be born through them.
To facilitate our return home, an energy is born within us. This energy is known as Kundalini and
it is the link by which we are transformed back into our own Divinity. Following the Divine
blueprint, we are led through purification of man´s lower consciousness into higher states of
awareness where we encounter Divine Truths which reveal what the mystics have always known... that
God is within, in a very real and tangible way."
- Solomae Sananda
Living Spirit Foundation
a brief note... - 2/17/03 Baz Luhrmann - Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of
sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering experience...I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of
your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they
have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way
you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You're
not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your
life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you. Sing. Don't be reckless with other
peoples hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss. Don't waste your time
on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind...the race is long, and in the end,
its only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed
in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch. Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life...the most
interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the
most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees,
you'll miss them when they're gone. Maybe you'll marry, maybe you wont, maybe you'll have children,
maybe you wont, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th
wedding anniversary...what ever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself
either - your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way
you can...don't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, its the greatest instrument
you'll ever own... Dance...even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the
directions, even if you don't follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you
feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your
siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the
future. Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard
to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the
people you knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you
hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain
inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when
you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble
and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don't expect anyone else to support you.
Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out. Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be
careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of
nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting
over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than its worth. But trust me on the sunscreen...
solitude
still posture
serene smile
sweet, silent promise
total annihilation - zen
Quote
"Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off
as if nothing ever happened."
- Winston Churchill
a brief note... - 4/6/02
"The Sun Never Says"
Even
After
All this time
The sun never says to the earth
'You owe me.'
Look
What happens
With a love like that,
It lights up the
Whole
Sky. - Hafiz, Sufi poet
a brief note... - 12/3/01
A light will shine on the scattered few. Take notice of those who see. However sight is not always
wisdom nor is its absence justice. MODERATION. Life is more appealing than lust or greed. Youth is
Honesty baned by curiosity and ignorance. Age is Wisdom too often clouded by cynicism. The power
of Knowledge is Freedom. Don't let the Magic fade. Ambition is forked. Find a balance - all things
are necessary. Man's nature may be kind, Greed is not a product of Nature but of Man. Compassion
must strangle Corruption. We are the cord. The longer we wait the more we suffer. Strength in
Unity. Emotion is a key not a toy. Fear will become Frustration and then Fury. The weak use Force.
The weak will Fail. Those who are Faithfully blind are Fully dependent on Fragile promises. Future
generations will Forget one man's struggle. Few will admire the Fall of civilization.
a brief note... - 10/30/01
Georges I. Gurdjieff taught that the world is occupied by 'somnambulists.' These sleep walkers are
numb to the reality about them.
So, awakening into Spirit, is just that, an awakening from the dream.
It is torturous to dream and yet know you are still asleep. The pressure builds up from within,
and finally it arrives at a 'critical mass.'
It may be that for most, only then is there a possibility of awakening, as the alternative is
paralysis or extinction.
This is like the point in Qabala, when one has trod the Pathways for the journey toward final
illumination. Yet, one arrives at a chasm called the Abyss, and it is terrifying. Long ago a wise
teacher said, "Fear not, for there is an invisible Sephera called Da-ath in the midst of this
gap, and you are safe to step forward on it and cross to the other side." One cannot quite
recall just whom it was said those words, the ones which initiated the spiritual journey, and it
seems a very long fall if they are lies.
Paralysis is horrid, for having come this far, how can one turn back?
Then one looks to his/her left and right, and notices myriad others in the same quandary; afraid
of extinction and unable to let go of the journey.
Across the Abyss are Binah, Chokmah and Kether, which are the Holy Trinity in this mystical form,
and the Ain Soph Auer, the place of Infinite Perfection and limitless fulfillment. It is
unknowable and cannot be taught, only achieved.
Then one must ask if one is willing to surrender the fear of non-being to attain the reason for
being itself. The decision cannot be made by another but only by oneself. Forward? Backward? Or
stuck here forever?
^----^
~¿~ ?
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Namasté and Blesséd Be...
~~~~ Robin Goodfellow
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"May the longtime Sun shine upon You, all Love surround You
and the Pure Light within You guide Your Way on..."
~~~~~~~
a brief note... - 9/13/01
"...Although the words "Terror", "Horror" and "Outrage" will be
among those to be constantly repeated...behind, beneath and through them is the psychic reality of
hate and anger. As Jung understood the horror of World Wars to be an expression / acting out of
mankind's unconscious / unresolved Shadow issues...nothing has changed except the technology
through which to express / act out that Shadow. Our Shadow only grows through unresolved and
repressed hate, anger and resentment. It also grows exponentially by throwing the gasoline of
acting out on that already smoldering repression. Finally...unless we as individuals learn how to
deal with the responsibility of our own unfinished business / bullshit...we're going to continue to
witness others acting it out for (and most certainly against) us. We've all got a lot to learn
about ourselves...and Carl Jung is still one of the most accessible of healers through which to do
so."